Dear Fam,
I'm in Newala
today and tomorrow trying to get the housing situation figured
out for two new volunteers that are supposed
to becoming here mid-August. I learn something new about all
of the different "systems" and how to work with the local
government everyday. The contract Peace Corps has with the Tanzanian
government provides that TZ will supply a house and a working environment
and PC will supply the volunteer. Those agreements don't seem to
be passed down to the local governments though that never really
see any extra money that is needed to supply that housing lately.
Peace Corps has ended up supplementing a lot of the renovations
for these houses - especially with the old environmental and new
health programs. Education does alright though as they are connected
to schools, which generally provide housing to the majority of
their teachers anyhow........So it's been quite an adventure, talking
with the District Director, District Engineers and other "important" people.
While it's been incredibly tiring and we may have to actually scrap
one site due to lack of appropriate housing. I've actually enjoyed
the experience immensely. I am now learning so much about how to
negotiate, be diplomatic and assessment, it's amazing. I have always
thought of myself as a fairly organized and administration savvy
person, but I really didn't have a clue that previously I had been
skimming the surface of all there is to it. While I learned a lot
my first two years here, what I enjoyed most were my day to day
interaction with the people I worked with ( especially my students!).
This year I feel I am constantly learning new things each hour.
Best of all - I am finally starting to develop a backbone and learn
how to say NO or insist upon something being done right. There's
a strange balance involved in all of it. In the midst of becoming
someone fairly important (at least in the smallest scale of things)
I've also had the opportunity to
go back to my kijiji (Village) roots this past week. Newala and
Masasi are fairly sizeable towns, but feel so much smaller in comparison
to Mtwara (or M-Town as the local ex-pats like to call it for some
strange reason). I was amazed as I walked through the market in
Masasi a few days ago (en route to Newala) how many people recognized
and remembered me by name and had noticed I hadn't been around
in months asking me where I'd been - even the bus drivers wanted
to know if I'd been transferred from Ndwika or what. It gave me
a very nice sense of belonging even though Masasi isn't my base
town anymore. Then I got on the bus to Newala, rambling down the
dirt track, the road practically covered with grasses twice as
high as I am tall. I could just barely see the mud huts with their
grass roofs, through the grass, quitely sitting there under the
mango or cashew nut trees, waiting for or someone else to walk
by to create the news of the day. Obviously, the ride was very
nostalgic for me, but while sometimes I would love to place myself
back in that environment, I would go crazy doing if forever. Those
of us that come here for a few years at a time really have no clue
as to how lucky we are that no matter how much we integrate, adapt
and try to understand this way of life, it will never be our own
as we always have the safety line/net attached - we can leave it
all and go home whenever we decide. We can forget it all completely
if we want - "Peace Corps is something I did for a few years
in my 20's" and that's it. I really hope I don't forget and
manage to let loose of the reins a little bit and let if shape
and mold at the very least parts of my life. I'm sure it will,
because at least I'm conscious of that danger even now - but I
WONDER about other people. I don't know how anyone could forget,
but I am afraid that too many do...............Just reread that
- YES - this has been a very nostalgic week for me indeed!!!!!!!!!!!!
That being said......... I am enjoying my new life in Mtwara
more and more. I travel a lot though. I am lucky if I am home two
weeks out of the month. I enjoy the travelling - I get to see other
volunteers all of the time, but I do miss that sense of community
I had in the village.........People are starting to recognize me
as belonging though and I tend to shop/eat/socialize at the same
places, which really helps to build relationships. I think that
living in the village before and knowing the language a bit really
helps though. I have no problem putting myself out there and introducing
myself. I feel, for the new volunteers living in cities like Mtwara
though - without that village experience first it's tough. Even
being the veteran, it's tough sometimes....................
My work with FEMINA/ HIP(Magazine)product involves me being extremely
self-motivated to put myself out there and well, I don't always
want to do it. When I do though, and manage to meet with people,
make agreements or solve some issues or another, it's extremely
self gratifying............Definitely, the FEMINA work is something
that contributes each day to all I am learning this year............
Because I travel so much I don't feel I am able to spend as much
time on the FEMINA - HIP project as I would like.........It will
be interesting to see what happens in the next seven months or
so.. I am afraid that I'll end up spending all of this time on
a project, never to see it functioning without my help (or inference
depending on how one wants to look at it)......
The weeks before going to Newala were kept crazily busy by PEPFAR
conferences and in just a few week time, I start my really long
haul away from Mtwara ( about 6 weeks or so!)
First with a vacation to UGANDA with a friend from Dunsmuir High
School, my friend, Chris Bowman. Look forward to his arrival and
news!!!!!!
NEXT IST for Education and PST a new group of Health Volunteers
coming in June. I'm sure that it will be exciting and fun and tiring
all at the same time !!!!!!!!
Love to you
all, Jessica..............
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