Dear Fam,
So I'm sitting
here, writing to you by candle light, as I listen to the yelling
of voices of my girls as they try to
find their way from the classrooms to the dormitories in the
dark; the power's just gone out. This is a rare these days, as
it usually
occurs more in the rainy season, so there's more for the girls
to scream about. Half of them are probably screaming with joy
as no power = no studying and an early night to bed, while the
other
half is yelling with frustration as they count the hours lost
and the number of days/weeks left until the National Exams. Actually
both of those feelings are probably in every girl, it's just
the luck of the draw as to which one will come out tonight. It's hard to believe
nearly a month has already gone by since I came back to site.
Things were slow to start, but now I find
myself having a hard time finding much if anytime for "me".
I'm making myself take it this weekend though. Teaching is awesome.
My girls are continuing to make me smile and a good portion of
them amaze me with their levels of motivation. Hardly a day seems
to go by when I don't get some type of extra work placed in my
hands to be marked so the student can make corrections. I really
hope their efforts are well rewarded when they take their exams.
One of
the biggest frustrations (among many) of this exam-based
system to move onto the next level is that there is virtually
no
way to reward students for extra-participation, drastic improvement,
etc. Of course, one could argue that you can "see" that
effort in a good exam score, but I disagree. To me, the B that
was achieved by the student who put in extra hours is worth much
more than the B achieved by the students who could have got an
A with just a little effort. It would be nice if there was a way
to recognize that here, but there isn't, at least not anyway that
really means something to the average Tanzanian. They're taught
from the beginning that exam scores are everything and I guess,
at least in terms of opportunities for a better life for these
girls, it's true. Teaching health stuff at the primary schools is going well. Those
kids are so interested in everything I have to say - or so it seems.
(Perhaps they're just trying to concentrate on understanding my
Kiswahili). I'm also super busy with my Peer Leader Group. They
are heading off to a nearby secondary school to teach life skills
on the 21st. Hopefully, it will all turn out well, but they are
making me nervous as to their preparation level; they haven't been
super -motivated with their activities in the past weeks.
The other exciting
news is that it's pretty much official that I will be here next
year as PCVL for Mtwara region. The Country
Director called me on Saturday and said "everything looked
good" for me to fill the post. PC is supposed to send me something
written in the mail at the end of the month and will be looking
for a house in Mtwara town at the end of the month. So everyone
can now celebrate the fact that I will have regular access to phone
and email starting in January.
Related to staying here a third year, I nearly broke-down crying
the other day after an awesome day of teaching at the thought of
leaving my girls in December. For about twenty minutes I convinced
myself that really, I'd rather stay in Ndwika and teach for one
more year. Reality quickly set in though and I am looking forward
to my new post while aiming to make this term the best one of my
service. Reflecting on that though is a huge reminder of all the
different emotions one goes through here daily. It's no wonder
that I get tired - but I love every minute of it in its own way!
That being said, I'm got to take advantage of the lack of electricity
and go to bed early -
Lots of love to you all!
Jessica |